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October 14th, 2003
01:30 pm


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Writing letters...
When someone tells me "Write letters" and I read in their eyes "I don't want to talk to you anymore", I send out one short letter that just says "letter" in it and let the person on the other side take the initiative at starting a conversation.

But when I see the person accidentaly two weeks after I send the letter and the person says "why didn't you write?" and I say "I did, I sent that short letter" and the person says "oh, I ignored that, waiting for a real letter" - then I get confused.

When the person adds "I am inviting people over this weekend, you will get an invitation this Saturday. I hope you come. And do write letter" and then two weeks later the invitiation never arrives. Then I decide that its the time to send a letter myself. One, because there hasn't been a day when I didn't think about her and second, because I was told to "write letters".

So I start the email. "You never replied to my last letter, so I decided to send another one.
***I was just interuppted by something that I will mention later***
Your invitation never came, how did that thing go? Tell me anything"

And I sent it off. Then I read/commented on LJ and started this post. Then, that "***" interruption happened. My email bounced back - I mistyped the adress. As I resent it, I added to it. I said how it just bounced and that I am adding a bit. I added that it was hard for me to write that first letter, that my head felt empty while writing. And thus I wrote about the emptiness. With that I sent it off.

But that was the nice way of putting it. Really, I got nearly paralized writing the letter. I got to the first two sentenses and couldn't write another word. I seriously considered not even sending it out at all. That must be the feeling that made sure that neither of us saw the other for over a month. My head even got a sharp stab of pain in it. With a great effort I added "Tell me about anything" and sent it off. Either I am getting old, or writing letters is getting hard.

Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: ...in class...

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Date:October 14th, 2003 09:29 pm (UTC)
Ah, I'm sorry. Seems everyone has been trouble with "others" recently. I wish I could join in on the depressing thoughts of having feelings for someone else, but school won't let me. At least you actually wrote to them. Now I could be totally off and you could be talking about your cousin or something like that, but I totally misinterpreted the whole post. If that's the case, you can throw me overboard.
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Date:October 15th, 2003 01:03 pm (UTC)
Deema, this is a good breakthrough. She still wants to be friends. It will go from there where it will, don't force anything.
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