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September 13th, 2003
05:26 am


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Rejected by the people...
Well... On the unrelated note: when I got home tonight, I sat down and re-read the Neverending Story. Great book. Still no Pandallo in there... As I was reading I had a wish. Then it came true. She called, I came. Then it stopped coming true. I wasn't carefull enough and we had a chat that only ended about half an hour ago. We'll just stay friends. I guess. That plan never worked before... Not sure that I want to talk about it now. Or ever. That does mean that I am now fully available. Although that also means that I will have to adjust myself a bit and probably shut myself in even more. I can see a lot of pain in other people in the near future. Guess that is my fault. Too bad... Now to bed. Eyes are wet and the remaining night is very very short. I really don't want to ever wake up. And I will now be always too busy for very many things. Such am I. I was once told my future, so far it holds accurate - completely unpredictable.

Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: Chizh - Na pole tanki grohotali (russianrock.com)

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Date:September 13th, 2003 10:42 am (UTC)
Deema, it's not the end of the world. In one respect, it's good to know where you stand so that you don't have to worry and wonder. C'mon, there are plenty of fisssh in the sea. Don't you want to date fish? I know they're kinda squishy and slimy, but look on the bright side ... uh ... They don't have eyelids!

Merin sá haryalle alasse
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Date:September 13th, 2003 11:38 am (UTC)
:) Thanks. I know that this is not the end of the world. Nor did I say it was. But it will have to be the end of some of my features. A start of some new ones, of course. I just need to change. Deematroll the Hermit...
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Date:September 13th, 2003 01:49 pm (UTC)
*hugs Deema*

Deema we love you.
Date:September 13th, 2003 08:33 pm (UTC)
I am here. I have ears, and eyes, and a heart. Wake me up if you feel like it. I will try to call you as soon as I have run across the courtyard in the dark jersey night.
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Date:September 13th, 2003 08:38 pm (UTC)
Thank you Emma.
I am rather OK. Just feeling a bit empty. And the Neverending Story only made it worse. Remember, it said that the empty ones are easy to control? Also, Bastian was a mighty guy and helped everyone, hurting himself. The point was that in helping others he forgot his real self and that instead of helping others he should have helped himself, by following his true wishes. Well, am I also wasting some resource when I do nice things to random people? Am I also an empty vessel that is easy to control? Am I going to get severely hurt because for the past few years I never considered helping myself?
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